Thursday, November 20, 2008

Winter is in the air

True, yesterday was 75 degrees (in November!?), but today it was only 35 and so we finally got to pull out some warm clothes! And very cute clothes in Myla's case. She's been looking so big lately - something about growing I think. She's doing it fast too - moving everywhere she can, whether crawling or walking around the furniture. She gets really mad at herself when she falters a little bit while standing too. Its so cute, you can't help but laugh, and she doesn't like that so much either.

Tonight, we tried some little ravioli's for Myla to pick up and feed herself. She seems to have a preference for that lately. She'll take a few spoonfuls of food from us and then the hands will break free and go in her mouth. So, she usually ends with cheerios or puffs. But tonight we thought something more substantial - yeah, right. Some ended up on her shirt, some on the floor (much to the dog's eternal happiness) and some smooshed all over the tray. I think she did get a taste of it, but then got too frustrated that they were so slippery and so she, yet again, finished with cheerios. As long as she's eating, right?

She fell asleep tonight holding tight to my finger as we were rocking. I've been waking up in the middle of the night lately with this weird feeling that I couldn't figure out until her little hand squeezed my finger. Its the feeling I had last year, when she was in the hospital. We had just gotten to hold her not too long before and it was around this time that she moved off the ventilator and onto high flow oxygen. That's what that feeling is, the same feeling of not being near her. That's why I can go back to sleep after I check on her, because there she is, sleeping in the next room with her diaper-butt up in the air, having little baby dreams. And not anywhere else. I hope that all the babies in all the hospital and all their moms can someday too feel that peace that comes with a happy baby in the next room.

2 comments:

Kathleen said...

That's beautiful Kara, I love reading your thoughts. I'm envious of your nice weather, we've been down right chilly, not fair! ;) So, where should we have our Christmas celebration this year, your house or ours, or perhaps somewhere in the middle, Mississippi? Miss ya! Love ya!
K

John & Jeanette Washburn said...

She is just beautiful in her red outfit and hairclip in her hair. Siunds like she wants to do right nowwwww and not falter. She will be soon and wanting to do more of other things. YOu will have many nights wakeful nights just checking to see her. Plus a few just watching her for awhile while she sleeps. take care new Mommy... xoxo Grandma in Omaha